Doubt Your Doubts, Mom...

"Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe." -Saint Augustine

Two things I ponder: if my parents are proud of me & if I'm a good parent. Outside of accepting my purpose, these are the only two things that keep me up at night. At this stage of my life, I don't need approval, but I do need answers...answers that only God can provide.

This past February, my middle child was offered a football scholarship to West Point. After jumping through all of the hoops, he was told in late May that his application was denied without any real explanation. Without going into all of the details, he was hurt and frustrated.

Lemme just say, that before I listened good ole Misfit Mama sprung into action asking "you want me to call them?". He declined and told me he was not worried about it. I simply prayed and listened. As I listened, I could hear the hurt but I also heard confidence.

A week later, he sent this message in our family group chat:

"Good Morning family!!! The bigger the prayer, the bigger the sacrifice! I've realized now after stepping back that everything I've ever prayed for has happened for me; rather it was when I wanted it or later. Things always work out for me in the end. We as a family don't ask God for simple things, so why should we go through simple tribulations? Everything is a test! Are we the same children of God when we don't get what we want immediately? If not, that has to change. We're blessed! Truly!!! Everything we ever asked for is coming! Attack the day!! I love y'all ❤️!"

The very next day, he got the call. His message to the family group text read, "Officially West Point Bound!" My response was simply, "Son, it's about he posture of your heart when you go through. Good job."

It's these moments - when my children become the teachers - that I know I did something right and that God is listening. My parents are proud & I'm a good parent.

Lesson: Trust & Believe. We trust him. We believe in Him, but do we believe Him? The two are like grace & mercy; they canNOT be separated.

Truthful. Thankful. Thoughtful.

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